Diary of Lisa Taylor, reluctantly 42 (and a half)

Or.. 'f.ck me I'm forty.. two.. and a half', though can look 38 on a - not so deluded - good day. Or 'How to reconcile a well experienced mind trapped in a still - but for how long? – youthful body.' Don't have the 30somethings angst/problems, neither have the resigned (?) ageing baby-boomers in safe family territory outlook yet. Here's how I cope, one day all sexy women will get old... but never invisible. © Lisa Taylor 2005/6/7/8/9. Jeez.. so much for the 42 and-a-half delusion

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

13 June - are 22 year olds as far as africa?

Out with Katia and her friends after an art gallery opening. Realise am invisible to 30-35 year olds.
The next section up also steer clear away, like being 40 something is a disease you can catch and they don’t know they are infected too. In fact, men are generally more in denial than women. It never ceases to annoy me how if you reverse the m/f picture they seem so deluded. In dating website the older than 50 are forever capping the age of the females they are prepared to date at something like 35! As if we didn’t have any objections to ‘old cock’ (loved a recent episode of Nip/Tuck where some twenty something woman tells playboy Christian who’s shaking the keys to his BMW and declares ‘I’m a plastic surgeon’ like it’s some great job- that she has no objections to cock, just doesn’t like old cock).

Perversely the 20 something are quite open to interact. What do they see? Must ask one or two. Do they feel safe? Like with some version of their parents and favoured aunties? Or do they think ‘No way is she going to turn me down or if she does she won’t do it in that vicious way that my contemporaries have which can reduce me to dust.’We are in a bar with music and they are all sitting down drinking and happily ignoring the soundtrack (David Bowies China Girl for example, we are in what I call eurotrash safe zone or maybe truly there are marketing companies that test what music makes you drink more and compile CDs accordingly). But they all get up to dance to ‘Everybody’s kung fu fighting’. How come it’s cheese for me and they, who were born twenty years later don’t find it so? I personally want to die if I hear ‘By the rivers of Babylon’ or at least have to leave the venue. Anyway, we can still find topics to talk about with the 22 year olds but any younger…16 is probably is as far from us as Africa. Not just Africa the continent, but some lost path in a forest in the Congo. Those of us who don’t have kids or relatives of this age, truly lack the words to communicate. Or even if parents… don’t have them in any case. Is this why parents drink a lot of wine? Who drinks more, the parents or my single friends? Not sure if expanding waistlines can be used as a guide on this.

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